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But I Didn't Give Up

  Where has the time gone!? I guess that’s life…the older we get, the faster time seems to fly. Let’s see if I can even recall all the things that happened this year:  First and foremost, I didn’t take a drink or do any drugs this year. That in itself is a miracle. There were a few times when I wanted to drink and a couple of times when I NEEDED to drink. But I didn’t do it, and I’m so thankful. My best friend got married, and I got to be in the wedding. Sober. I got to be a real friend. I worked really, really hard and showed up for work every day. (Again, if you know my...

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Faith is risky

Things are getting very, very real. On December 23rd, I'll be leaving my full-time job, and literally jumping into God's arms. As you might imagine, I'm starting to get terrified - mostly because I don't have all the answers yet. But that's faith, man. Faith is risky. That being said, I decided to list the pros and cons of a life with God vs. the 9-5 life.  Doesn't seem so crazy now, does it? I'm actually really glad I took the time to list all of that, because now I'm even more certain. There's just no way I can ignore this pull on my heart. Ok, but what about money? Let’s be real…I make $54,000 as it is. Every month,...

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Holy Crap I Just Quit My Job

I'm quitting my full-time job, so that I can pursue CLTIVATE with all of my heart. It sure is scary, but I'm trusting in God. There's a pull on my heart that I just can't ignore. 

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This Is My "Why"

This is my "why" from Zack Gudzan on Vimeo. Everything was fine. I had a new job, enough money to do what I wanted, and plenty of friends. People knew me as a dude who just really liked to party. My weekends always started on Thursday nights…I never understood why people waited until Friday to celebrate. It was my third week on the new job, and I was really itching to go party. So I did. I got blackout, per usual - probably went to 3 bars, smoked a pack of Marlboro Lights, and drove home. I didn’t wake up until late Friday afternoon…I missed work, had several missed phone calls, and a miserable hangover. Long story short, I got...

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It's a God Thing

Full disclosure: I have no idea what I’m doing – I started a business once…it failed. I’ve been fired from so many jobs it’s not even funny. In fact, the only job I haven’t been fired from is the one I have now – in sobriety…go figure. So what is it that makes me so sure that I should start a non-profit from scratch? How am I so confident? What makes me think CLTIVATE will be any different? Why am I so motivated? (Currently sitting at Amelie’s Bakery in NODA – it’s 11:28pm on a Wednesday, already worked 8 hours at my full-time job, sat in traffic, let my dog out, hit the gym, made dinner, and now I’m here…why...

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