It's very important that I take time to appreciate things. My life is a gift from God - every single moment of it. It wasn't really that long ago that I was wrestling with suicidal thoughts each day, and spiritually/emotionally bankrupt. I vividly remember making the decision that I was going to kill myself. It wasn't a "maybe". I was ready to leave this world.
What God has done in my life is the very definition of a miracle. To say my heart is grateful doesn't even scratch the surface of what each moment means to me.
We all go through some really heavy stuff, and some days just don't seem worth it. This world just sucks sometimes, and it really would be easier to not exist. But we do exist, and we're all stuck on this planet together, so we might as well have a good time and smile about it. No one has life figured out. The people you see on Instagram who look like they have it together...they don't. They're only showing you the beautiful 1% of their lives. We all struggle, we've all questioned our own existence, and we're all just doing the best we can.
If you're having trouble with gratitude today, try this: Go outside, open your eyes, and smile. Fake it if you have to. If that doesn't work, go help another person. If that doesn't work, try praying on your knees. Pray that you'll stop being so blind to the gifts right in front of you. The fact that you're alive means you have something to be grateful for. Stop being negative - it's awful to be around, and it doesn't help anything.
^^^I'm writing that just as much for myself as I am for you, so don't take it too personally haha. This is how I talk myself out of negativity. If we all just take a second to be real with ourselves, real change can happen. Or just keep being negative...the choice is yours, really. :)