Feb 2 - When I Want to Drink
While I very rarely get tempted to drink anymore, I have to admit that I still have the occasional fleeting thought about drinking. You see, I had a lot of really good times drinking, and for some reason, that's what my mind typically recalls.
I tend to forget the awful, crippling hangovers. I forget about the people I hurt, the people I stole from, the emotional theft, the depression I drank to forget, and the suicidal thoughts.
When temptation comes, I have to be ready, or all of my hard work can disappear in the blink of an eye. When drinking crosses my mind, I pray. No matter where I am, no matter what is going on, I pause to ask God to remove that thought. The next thing I do is find a way to be helpful to another person. It can be something as simple as smiling - I find that shifting my focus toward others gets me out of my own head - the most dangerous place to be.
If you're having thoughts about drinking today, I can assure you that it won't make anything better. Look at how far you've come. Don't throw away your hard work on the very thing that made you miserable.
"God, thank you for rescuing me from my life of drinking. Please take that burden away from me today. I pray that you would fill my day with things that please you. When I get stuck in my own head, just tap me on the shoulder and let me know that you are God. You changed my life, and I will live this day for you. I ask for your protection today - please surround me with your unfailing love. Amen."