Maybe this is the alcoholic in me, but I can't stand waiting - for anything. I'm a seeker of instant gratification. But God waits.
I talk about prayer and faith a lot, but I can't pretend my prayers are always answered right away. And I certainly can't pretend I'm always ok with that.
Psalm 119 reminds me that His word is "a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path." Think about a lamp. It doesn't light up the world - it's just enough to take another step. I can't speak for anyone else, but that's how my experience has been in recovery. I never know what the day will bring, but I somehow always know exactly what to do next.
Today, I will wait patiently for God's plan to unfold. I'll take a break from spinning all these ridiculous scenarios in my mind. I'll trust that whatever is supposed to happen, will happen in time.
All I have to do is use the gifts I've been given: time, love, sobriety, good health, and freedom from my past. If you ever feel "stuck", just think about who you can help, and take a step in that direction. You'll find plenty of light on that path.